There are a handful of songs I've written through the last 10 years, that have been sitting around gathering dust. Some of them are a bit too sharp and vicious, but now that my marriage is over and my grandmother is gone, the list of people I'm worried about disappointing is getting shorter and shorter.
Some of these songs are pointed straight at the heart of the rot in my relationship. If my wife hadn't decided to leave, these songs sure would have driven her away. I usually only played them when no one was home, or I was drunk enough to make friends uncomfortably sit through them. Some have chords suggested to me by my wife's new boyfriend, the new head of her table.
But some aren't that vicious at all. Some are about trying to find ways to be thankful, even for loss. And some are last ditch efforts.
Here's one of those; a demo about 5 or 6 years old. I recorded it in a rush, to feel like I accomplished something. The instruments were a mix of my little four string and keyboard tapping in Garageband. To call it a "demo" is to oversell it really. But I did record it, and all the parts are intact more or less.
https://soundcloud.com/hummingbird-feet/the-summer-that-we-forget-demo
I'm looking forward to taking another shot at theses songs, with friends this time, as a way to begin to put to bed the last couple decades, and to be thankful for every moment from then till now, even the ones that I am not proud of.
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. The sun is now up, and I've got to go start cutting up vegetables and cracking eggs and setting out a new tradition. All my best to you.